Still waiting for an answer

James Wilson, 38
21 reviews on RNKD · 9 min read
SPOILERS This review discusses the whole book, including how it ends.
If a sister dies of breast cancer and leaves a nine-year-old, a peeling log house, and a handwritten will with no date and no witness, who actually owns the next decision? Leslie North’s His Secret Child never answers that in any way that would last five minutes in a real kitchen. I am going to talk about the paternity reveal and how this wraps up, because the book is built around both, and I cannot explain why I finished it annoyed without them.
I finished it. I would not recommend it.
Slade, who appears to have only the one name for most of the pages, drives an SUV to Oregon after Bethany Simmons rings his security firm about her sister Tayra. Tayra used to be married to Brock, one of Slade’s men. Brock is on honeymoon, so the boss goes himself. He arrives on what is basically funeral day, sees a boy with a stiff walk, and within a few pages is being told Jason is Brock’s son. Then he is buying Rocky Road, refusing ice cream, then having ice cream because Bethany looks at him. The house needs paint. The Volkswagen is dying. The child wants a nap. Slade sits on a porch that gives him a splinter and immediately rings a colleague to pull medical records, marriage licences, and a background check on Bethany, including whether she has ever been arrested. She comes out with lemonade and Wild Turkey. He offers to pay her off. She says she wants to adopt Jason and that the boy needs an operation. That is roughly chapter four, and already I did not believe a word of how these people speak to each other.
It is daft.
The book wants you to take Slade as competent and protective. In practice he treats every gap in information as a licence to take over. He sleeps on the sofa, kisses Bethany in the kitchen while she is crying at dawn about her sister, then tells her that should never have happened. He restocks the fridge. He replaces the living room. New leather sofa, new table, satellite television, all delivered while she is in the other room writing code. She comes out and asks if he thought she might have liked the old stuff. He does not, not really. He also tells Jason a bedtime story about extracting a client from a drug lord in Bolivia, with an iguana for dinner and some invented Inca treasure. Jason is nine. His mother has just died. This is sold as bonding. I kept thinking of the sort of email that says something will be sorted by Friday when Friday is only a target. Slade talks like that, except the customer is a grieving aunt and a child.
I kept waiting for someone to say who owns the next step. Nobody does.
Bethany is a freelance programmer who has been raising Jason more than Tayra did, which the book repeats until it becomes a slogan rather than a fact. She wants Brock to sign away parental rights. She does not want a DNA test because hospitals scare the boy. That feeling I understood. Then the plot needs the test anyway, and the real secret is not that Jason is Brock’s. Jason looks like Slade. Bethany sees them watching baseball together, same posture, same face, and asks when he was going to tell her. Slade’s version is that after Tayra left Brock he tracked her down, drank in her bar, walked her home, and slept with her once because she cried at dawn. He left a note. He never saw her again. He did not know about the child. He still wants a DNA test. He also wants Bethany and Jason on a plane to San Diego the next day to see a specialist, stay in a booked-out bed and breakfast, and, fairly quickly, sleep together. The bit I do not follow is how any of that is meant to sit next to a funeral, a probate mess, and a boy who has just asked, over leftover fries, whether Slade is his dad.
I do not buy the timing.
Tayra dies of breast cancer. The sympathy at the drugstore is still in the room. Bethany has nightmares about being buried alive. Jason processes it in the way kids sometimes do, which the book at least notices, and then the story puts the adults in bed in San Diego and has Slade thinking about marriage as the tidy solution to custody, housing, and his own diary. He has a beach house with four empty bedrooms. He suggests selling Tayra’s place and putting the money in a trust. Bethany notices, correctly, that he has already decided. They argue about a growth-plate treatment that might, in rare cases, need radiation if it overshoots. She goes off to research it. He has two of his men follow her. She fries one of their phones with a privacy program she wrote, which is the closest the book comes to a joke I actually liked, and then he turns up because of course he was nearby. He apologises for coming on too strong. Then he proposes.
The apology is thin. The proposal is not a question so much as a closing date.
He tells her he is crazy in love, that he will track her if she leaves, that he will not drag her back, and that he will ask her to marry him every day until she says yes. He also says he will want her in his bed every night. The book thinks this is devotion. It reads like a man who cannot tolerate an open item on a list. Bethany says it will not be easy, holds his hand, goes to a beach party, and still does not give a clean yes. Jason, half asleep after surfing lessons, tells Slade he should marry Aunt Bethany because she has always been his second mum. The last chapter has her crying on the sand because there is no grass, asking if he wants more children, and then pushing him against a wall because she needs to feel alive. That is the ending. I closed the file with the same question I started with, plus a newer one about how you are supposed to build a household on a secret you have not even told the man whose marriage started the whole mess.
Why did Tayra hide this? The book offers fear, a dislike of confrontation, a childhood of loud rows, and the idea that she wanted to be alone if she was going to be alone. That is not nothing, but it is not an answer that covers years of letting her sister believe Brock was sending cheques, putting no father on a birth certificate, and then using a dying wish to summon the security firm. Brock never appears. He is deliberately kept off stage so Slade can sort, in his own head, the bullet Brock has dodged, and then discover he is the father himself. Honour gets mentioned a lot. In practice the honour is a one-night stand with your colleague’s ex-wife, a background check on the grieving aunt, and a child used as the reason to renovate a house and propose. I work with people who talk about family when they mean the firm. I know how that sounds when the actual family has not been told.
The medical thread is the bit that should have been handled with care and is not.
Jason has Russell-Silver syndrome and a leg-length discrepancy. There is talk of shoe lifts, of shortening one leg or lengthening the other, then a San Diego specialist who wants to stimulate growth plates, overnight fasting, hormone studies during sleep, weekly x-rays, and a warning about radiation if growth goes too far. Bethany asks about cost and success rates. Slade puts a hand on her arm and says it does not matter. Later he is right that the treatment is well regarded, and she admits that, but the book has already used the hospital as a plot mover and the child’s fear as seasoning. You do not bounce from his mum went in and did not come out to ace these tests and I have World Series tickets without looking like a menace. Slade thinks he is being a role model. He comes off as a man who has mistaken money and access for parenting. Homeschooling, the friends, the town doctors, the attempt to keep one ordinary week in place, all of that is treated as Bethany being too protective. He wants a school, a hoop over the garage, fewer video games, more respect. Some of that might even be fair in a longer book. Here it is just another takeover.
Money is the other tell. The SUV has air conditioning and no springs poking anyone. The living room arrives in a day. The bed and breakfast is booked in full. There is a limo on the tarmac and Oregon beer already in the bar. Harry the handyman is paid in advance. None of this is impossible if you run a private security firm for people who do not want to be famous, but the book never lets the cost land as a decision. It is just proof of character. Bethany’s freelance work, her Portland flat, her college fund for Jason, her actual plan to keep his life stable where his doctors and friends already are, all of that gets treated as stubbornness. House repairs are something he wants done now. Her grief is something he wants solved with help she did not ask for. I kept seeing the same pattern I see when someone promises a turnaround they do not own. The phrase is protection. The behaviour is possession.
I did not need the sex to be the problem. It is a romance. I knew that going in. The problem is that the sex arrives while the will is still a mess and the boy is in a hospital bed down the road, and nobody behaves as if that is strange. The first kitchen kiss happens because she is sobbing. The San Diego night happens because he says if he does not kiss her he will do something stupid. The shower the next morning happens on the way to the hospital. Then they argue in a corridor about whether she is allowed to research a treatment. If you like that pace, you will not mind. I minded. It felt like the plot had a turnaround time and the people were being chased to meet it. There is even a line about knights and dragons that the book seems rather pleased with. I would have settled for one adult conversation that did not end in a booked flight.
There is a version of this story that could have been about two adults slowly working out guardianship, money, and a child who already has a life. This is not that version. This is a boss who cannot leave a file open, a woman who keeps saying she does not want to be managed and then getting on the plane, and a secret that exists so the title has a job. I do not care that they end up on a beach. I care that the book never sits still long enough to let Jason be a person rather than a condition, a resemblance, and a reason to marry. It also never deals with Brock, which is the hole it keeps walking around. You cannot call it honour if the one person who most needs the facts is still on honeymoon when the credits roll. Would not read the next one. Would not hand it to anyone who has actually had to sort a will, a school form, or a child who asks a question you are not ready for. The question at the start is still sitting there. Who owns the next step? In this book, whoever has the chequebook and the jet. That is not a romance I can take seriously, and it is not a family story I would trust.








